never gone so hard so slowly

With may coming to a close the final prep for road nats has begun. Just like before Defi I find myself on my TT bike close to every day, and if its not the TT then its the track bike. My rides consist of longer rides and efforts on the aggressive torture device or I find myself at the track in LA, looking for tenths of a second with my standing start.
Friday brought excitement in that I hit the deck at the track once again. This time it was equipment failure and I walked away missing little skin but a large part of my ego. I love the track more and more. It hurts a lot, but we're not in this sport to have a pain free experience. Plus, track days mean an easy spin on the road bike in the morning and a day off from the TT machine.
I got back on the TT the past few days for my least favorite workout ever, race simulation. This workout involves riding my bike as fast as possible up the highway 33 outside of ojai, then flipping it and racing back to the start. I love the 33, pretty empty, good pavement, high speed descents, except when climbing it in my aero bars. Last week i wanted to die as i blew up early on an early pitch of the climb and suffered through to the end. Today my effort was more controlled as i rode hard into the steep section an used it to catch another gear as i clawed my way to the turn around. The way back was another story as i attempted to ride flat out, not get killed by gravel trucks barreling down the hill, and not puke on myself at the same time.
I made it down, faster than last week, with more time spent cranking a huge gear on the descents in my aero bars.