conflict

Sometimes I wonder if im doing the right thing. Last year after April camp I put aside all thoughts of going abroad in order to train to race at the best of my abilities. Now im wondering if i sacrificed a year of living in a country I have dreams about for a year of overfilled classes and pain filled workouts. I shouldn't be thinking like this but seeing friends go abroad this fall was pretty painful. I really do wonder sometimes if I am doing the right thing, I love two things, bike racing and making wine. In SB i have all the resources to race my bike and the degree to get a good job in the industry through my experience and my father's connections. While these thoughts help me work through hard science classes, i wonder if im sacrificing true contentment in order do fulfill my other passion, the dream of racing my bike on an international level. Then again, sacrifices have been made and you cannot change the past, i guess its time to HTFU, get class done with and get on with the bike. Spain and winemaking will always be there, legs don't last forever.